Door HansytheKing, geplaatst op donderdag 04 maart 2010, 13:00. Views: 2.

Brain Townsend blogt over zijn gigantische downswing

Het zit Brain Townsend niet mee op de highstakes van FullTilt de afgelopen 3 maanden. In zijn blog verteld hij over hoe het hem vergaat en dat het erg lastig is om positief te blijven.

"This downswing is really starting to get to me. In just PLO I reached 4 mil under all in EV in the past 3 months. I try my best to say that all I can do is play my best in the situation I am in.

I try not to worry about others results and how well or poorly they are doing and just focus on my play. I have to admit its getting hard.

It feels like every day I play I sit down and I get stuck 100k with in 20 min. I try to quit and will then play another session later in the day where the same thing happens."

Brain Townsend geeft toe regelmatig te fantaseren om 4 miljoen boven in plaats van onder EV te runnen. Maar geeft daarnaast ook toe dat het niet alleen om het geld gaat:

"When I am feeling really creative I think how amazing it would be to run 4 million over EV instead of under. I think how nice it would be to be 8 million dollars richer.

Really though my life wouldn't be any better if I were 8 million dollars richer. I wouldn't do anything differently and probably would just be alot cockier, a bit douchier, and generally less like able.

When I really think about it the only reason I really care about running poorly is that I get some validation from my work. I always have tried to excel at things I do and poker is no different. I think to some degree it defines who I am."

Samen met een aantal vrienden en coaches heeft hij z'n spel geanalyseerd. Op een paar kleine schoonheidsfoutjes na noemt hij z'n spel van de afgelopen tijd gewoon goed:

"I generally find a few small things I could do differently but mainly my play is good.  I go to bed and wake up and repeat this process.  I feel like I have done this for weeks on end.  I keep telling myself not to get down and that it will turn around but it doesn't.  Its just more of the same everyday."

Townsend sluit af dat het blog best therapeutisch voor hem heeft gewerkt. Laten we het hopen, want een $4.000.000 onder EV swing gun je niemand.